missing you,missing you
my friends came to my house to days ago.....well we actually went camping...it was 4 3 days and 2 night..... just for fun...there where a lot of fun things that we did....i don't even have the word to subscribe it....i just felt so alive by that time...as if my worries were gone and everything...i was at peace...i was happy...i was joyful.....just being along with friends...it almost feel like heaven.......but it felt like hell when they have to go back home....i wish they could stay for one more night...so that i won't feel so lonely....but what has been plan must go with the plan...they went home... my father n i sent them to their homes....the first one was
Dekda,and then
Sha_Eika after that
Feeza and the last one was
Wawa_Waffle. Honestly, im telling u guys...after i sent the last one and was headed back home..OTW i almost cry but i hide it so that my dad won't see it....i regret most of it....i thought to my self "Y didn't you say kirim salam kat mak n ayah korang or dtg lagi or something.."cuz after that i felt a sudden guilt and sorrow like ive just being dump by my boyfriend(which i dont have) or i hear news that my husband(dong ho) got into an accident.....as i reach my house,i wondered to all the places my friends has been sleeping... i sat at the couch where i sat on the night they sleep at my house,there i imagine them sleeping,if u think what i think ur thinking well dont cuz what i felt at that time was like ive just sent my daughters to boarding school,i felt so lonely....and then i stared at the front of my room and then sat on the bed thinking how lonely i was.....and even thought its only been hour since they left i already start to miss them...really miss them...there only god who know how much i miss them...i miss the CNBlue girls....really miss them...now i just hope time would past so that i could meet them again.....
