Why is a day without you So hard to bear I can't stand it anymore Leave me now You're not next to me But I think about it a 100 times 'Why, I can't do it without you, I can't do it anymore

my new bag....:D

today, my family and i went to KL.We arrived around 4pm,and at first we thought we want to go to PERTAMA  complex but unfortunately it's closed.So we went to SOGO which was just across the street.At SOGO,i bought a new bag and a new perfume.....I bought a Sachca  bag and a Dior perfume.....thanks to my dad cuz he paid for every thing....and then we had our dinner at The Ship(again??? well it's the closest western restaurant 5 starto be exact) and we had a wonderful dinner as it's the first time in 2012 we ate dinner with all the family members on the table.....we talked many thing and laughed a lot cuz my elder sister tells us stories about our past which was very funny...hehehe...i still can't stop laughing cuz it's really funny...After that, we went back home.....talk some more and then went to sleep, i guess i'm the only one up right now but now i want to go cuz im starting to feel a little bit sleepy now....bye2 people,bye2 blog....love you guys......
Hello my dear bloggers,
    long time no see?hehehe... i haven't been updating my blog since new years......sori for that...hehehe... I've been very busy with school stuff and  i know my mom will piss if i open the internet during school session....and now its holiday season (only 4 one week) so i can open it......but the bad news is that i have TONS of homework.....i need to finish it within a week with is not so bad but tiring....and if this is my last post, i sori cuz i share this broadband with my sister who just finish her SPM.....with means she's home all the time....urgh!!!! how lucky is she.... she got more lives then a buddha's cat.....i wish i'm already 20 years old now....but i cant cuz in life u need to take one step at a time....it means i need to face my PMR exam first and then form 4 and then I'll be taking my SPM exam....which means its another two years....hahaha....yay me!!!!! ok thats all 4 now my beloved bloggers...bye2.......       8)
Hey guys...2011 is gone and 2012 is here....so whats ur aim for this year....is it to find ur one n only love  or to find internal happiness or just a dream that maybe can be found through the year...well as 4 me.... i was thinking to have the greatest year of my life...and since i'll be facing my PMR this year,i hope i'll get straight 8 A's.......

actually,well....he is an old friend of mine,since elementary school and during that time...well i fell in love with him... I was able to tell him how i feel but i think he's not the romantic type so he keeps quite at first and the next day he acts as if nothing happen between us....becuz i dont want to make it worst,i go with the flow. We break apart when I was in form 1 cuz he was offered to a boarding school. He sent letters to me and my friends,but no personal letter of course...after that there was a huge silence...and then it broke off.....i've never contact him cuz he has no phone or number to contact with...but then one day,at facebook,he suddenly chat with me...the chat went on n on until,he ask me "do i still like him?" and i was like "OMG....he ask bout it but i dont want to make a fool of my self,so i answer him "yes,i like u.......as a friend"and he said "ok"plainly ok. I mean what does that mean,ok in a good mood or a sad mood. He knows that i like him and i hope he stills think me as a friend cuz when he as that question i wonder if i said yes i like him,like him will he say i like u since ever or i'll make a fool of myself. I never hated him except once when he hurt my friends feeling by making them wait for him n my friends hates him now...that one no comment....i cant change their feelings right, its who they hate that i start to think if u hurt my friends u hurt me...so i hate him...and then this came...i was like OMG...Oh god if u hear me now,please lead me a way,a way were no one is hurt and the ways to ur heaven ,and may i find joy during the journey....Amin..


and this one...well actually i've always want to share it in my blog but i dont have the time and im sick of snatching it from my sister any way here is the video...its call Breaking Apart...the meaning of the song really touches my heart and i hope it will touches ur heart as well....frankly to say that this is actually the song for my blog....and there's a reason why i like this song...as they say"every music has a story in it"
my friends came to my house to days ago.....well we actually went camping...it was 4 3 days and 2 night..... just for fun...there where a lot of fun things that we did....i don't even have the word to subscribe it....i just felt so alive by that time...as if my worries were gone and everything...i was at peace...i was happy...i was joyful.....just being along with friends...it almost feel like heaven.......but it felt like hell when they have to go back home....i wish they could stay for one more night...so that i won't feel so lonely....but what has been plan must go with the plan...they went home... my father n i sent them to their homes....the first one was Dekda,and then Sha_Eika after that Feeza and the last one was Wawa_Waffle. Honestly, im telling u guys...after i sent the last one and was headed back home..OTW i almost cry but i hide it so that my dad won't see it....i regret most of it....i thought to my self "Y didn't you say kirim salam kat mak n ayah korang or dtg lagi or something.."cuz after that i felt a sudden guilt and sorrow like ive just being dump by my boyfriend(which i dont have) or i hear news that my husband(dong ho) got into an accident.....as i reach my house,i wondered to all the places my friends has been sleeping... i sat at the couch where i sat on the night they sleep at my house,there i  imagine them sleeping,if u think what i think ur thinking well dont cuz what i felt at that time was like ive just sent my daughters to boarding school,i felt so lonely....and then i stared at the front of my room and then sat on the bed thinking how lonely i was.....and even thought its only been hour since they left i already start to miss them...really miss them...there only god who know how much i miss them...i miss the CNBlue girls....really miss them...now i just hope time would past so that i could meet them again.....


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